v18: noir&blanc

sherlene

the girl's 18. stuck on a small island, also known as the little red dot on the global map. presently living a mundane life contributing to the unemployment rate and chionging driving lessons are what she does nearly daily. well, here records some of the interesting and amusing moments she enjoys. :D

turns 365 days older on the 7th of Nov and is deeply in love with the colour purple. currently indulging in SUPER JUNIOR! :D

Super Junior M - 迷 (Me)

get it in stores 2 or 9 May depending on your region!

favourites

corkboard

statistics

hooligans crashed & graffitied.

currently hooligan(s) rotting here.

extreme tracker

Freitag, Juli 29

8:05 PM

i feel that i need to update this place.

my grandmother has passed away.

my dad's mother, that is. and she's in her late eighties.

on sunday, when i went to visit her, she was frail and weak, and her hands were swollen due to the medication.

it pains my heart to see her suffer that way.

and i think it pained my dad's heart more.

i felt sad, but yet, i had to concentrate on my amath vectors and kinematics.

i wasnt really close to her. but i got pictures of her, 15 years ago, carrying me and smiling widely, while i was just a newborn.

she was healthy, bouncy and lively.

it wasnt until she suffered diabetes and then a stroke came.

she was wheelchair-bound and wasnt as alert as before.

years before, she was very sickly, but her favourite grandchild, my 4th uncle's son, was about to get married, and that willpower made her live on. that was in 2001.

4 years later, she went through many difficulties, sicknesses and all. and now. i hope that she can leave us peacefully, and be happy wherever she is now, in her Garden of Eden.

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although im closer to my mum's mother, i'd never forget my other "Mama", although sickly, she'd put on smiles for her grandchildren (the youngest being me) and her 4 great-grandchildren. but she hasnt lived to see her 5th, with my cousin's wife, who's pregnant now.
i hope my grandfather will be ok. he's a strong man... 87 and going out and about, always wanting to explore the world outside. i've heard stories, that in his younger days, he'd walk all the way from ang mo kio to johor bahru in one day, just to explore the place.

i'd be praying for him, i hope he goes through this, and lives on to a riper old age.

i spent 5 mins typing this, at the same time, forcing back tears and sadness.

i feel crushed. i ran in school today, was so tired, got demoralized by mrs geh, came home had physics tuition. and now. this bad news.

i sincerely pray that my whole family will pull through this.
and i pray for my father's wellness too.

i really dont know how else to feel.
am i supposed to be feeling this way?

- i'll always miss you, Mama.

Mittwoch, Juli 27

8:50 PM

haiya. i dont feel like updating.

孟哲，生日快樂！

Sonntag, Juli 24

7:27 PM

okay i went out to visit my grandma today. =( she's in hosp...

i hope she gets well soon. she's 85. and going strong.

anws, i miss 10 dec and 11 dec 04! bahhhhh....
read my archives if you wanna know... *look left*

thanks to wen who took this pic! =)

from 5566singapore.
pls come and support 5566singapore ok?
any enquiries, feel free to PM me. i'm ilovejr. =)

so yeah. i had chomp chomp food for dinner.
YUMMY. =) im craving for more.
oh yes. i'm very grateful to someone who helped me
do 110 pages of photocopying. =)
thankews.

- i cant think of any quote.

Samstag, Juli 23

10:40 PM

i've got lots to blog about... this whole week was hectic. and i doubt i'll be any free-ier the next few weeks or months, actually. until 18 nov. =(

well, i told dad the news abt my horrible block ca results. and he took it better than i did. kris was actually right. hahahahahahhahahaha. i was like damn scared that he'd yell at me or something. =( so anws, i'm gonna work hard, tho i'm pretty lethargic and so on. hehehe. =)

well, what to do?

and yes. i read harry potter and the hbp finish on... wed. yepp. impressive for me to read a 606 page book in 5 days. although si min the expert book-reader finished in in 3/4 days! wth la... tsk.

and i've been talking to kris alot lately. its been good to confide in someone. eh, dont tell my secrets to anyone arhhh! =/ and bit*hing about people. HAHA. no la. i'm just kidding...
yes. and we discuss answers too. so we're gonna work hard together right?!

the past week has been torturous. and depressing...
mrs geh almost made me cry the other day... AHHH! I LOVE MRS GEH. XD
she's actually very nice. even tho she looks so fierce. and her sarcasm is more funnier than mr ang's. hahaha. well, its good to know that mrs geh recognizes my efforts in amath and that she'd excuse me from remedial cos i've got too many things on my mind. =) mrs geh rocks. its a real pity she's gna leave tkg after this year! sob ='(

and ms ho. ms ho talked to me in the library that day, after the fuel cell expt... i didnt know that ms ho cared so much about our class, and i said that i had no interest in chem right? well, now i do! i hope i can at least do ms ho proud, for putting so much effort in her chem lessons, except that many people dont really appreciate it. (well, the minority, that is) so yeahs. JIAYOU!!!

and thanks to those around me who cheered me up when i was super stressed and almost broke down in front of mrs geh.
thank you: kris, si min, joy ;) & jocelyn ;) its basically these people who were there! =)
esp joy! thanks so much joy! you rock! *altho i dont think she'd be here to read this*

so yeahs. i've decided not to let anyone down now.

most imptly, not to let myself down ever again.

- and she lived happily ever after.

Donnerstag, Juli 21

4:22 PM

omg. i seriously have to do some soul-searching. block ca results are out. dont ask me abt it.

i shall just run away and hide in another humble abode.
away from all the monsters at school and the goblins at home.

im gonna be a 24 hr mugger. i'll prob gonna come online twice a week
from now on.

i missed the com for 3 days. amazing feat.
btw, i finished reading hp alr.
book 7 should be nice.

oh man. i shdnt be here. i'd just rather kill myself.
i'm like failing more than i'm passing.
what's happening to me?!

- let me stuff my soul into a Horcrux

Sonntag, Juli 17

8:19 PM

BLARDY ARSEHOLE OF A ***CH SNAPE. GO AND DIE LA.

ugh. book 6 is thoroughly depressing.
i wanna cry.

jk rowling is so mean. =(
book 7's gonna be so sadistic man.
sigh.

- i love acid pops and raspberry jam

Samstag, Juli 16

9:07 PM

okey. i shall just update a little.

my bloody harry potter came late today. ugh. stupid ruckus.
elis' came at 9 am. and like. 7 hrs later at 4 pm, then mine arrived.
wth. ugh... and the post office closed. so i panicked.
and the phone directory was missing. and i pancked more.
then the blardy tv spoiled.

great. i had an enriching day.

bahhh. i shall study and read hp and watch wangzi 6. =P

- the half-blood prince

Freitag, Juli 15

6:02 PM

i have no idea why my mother likes to torment me.

till i go out of my mind.

listening was okay.
maybe not.
im praying it was.

my ears are like, blocked.
too much screaming yest caused me to lose my voice, and hearing.
and ms lui's sucha picker.
ugh.

whatever la. pick pick pick.
pick on people for whatever freaking reasons.
just like my mother.

irritant mutants existing in my world.
im having the worse kinda thoughts ever.

everyone out there is trying to ruin my life.

except for my friends and the other teachers not incl ms lui!
blast it la. i bet ms lui and my mother were twins in their previous lives.

both of them are unreasonable
they like to pick on me
they make up the weirdest reasons to torment people, just like Hooper
they are two-faced people who might be back-stabbers in real life
they have very qian bian faces

as a matter of fact, yes.

both of them are driving me crazy. i go to school and get tortured mentally by lui and come back and get tortured physically by my mother.

1 guess to guess what will happen to me in the future.

please, friends. save me before you'd have to visit me at an asylum in a few years time.

- and she's long gone.

Donnerstag, Juli 14

8:36 PM

aiyah. everyone's getting into JCs through DSA. fantastic.
i need to slog my butt off to get in through merit now.

anws, congrats to the c div 05!

they made us proud!
and nazy got into top 10 masters! which obviously mdm lee does
not allow us to go. =/ ohwells...........

they got 3rd. =) which is very pro...

and yewliang says our sch's enthu?...

of cos la. and i shouted till
my lungs almost died-ed.

oh crap. i just remembered i have listening compre tmr.

okay. better wash my ears. will update more tmr.
last time to pia for chinese o's le!
everybody jiayou

- lo and behold!

Mittwoch, Juli 13

9:45 PM

life is just so depressing.
i'm so sorry to keep saying that.

but i have no choice.

my life. is seriously, very very unfortunate.

i mean. there's no ups. but always downs.

i try to make myself happy.
but somehow or rather, its like. turns into shit.

its destined la. i dont know why.
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one thing good. i finished english prelims oral today! it was about family gatherings. ms ang said i did relatively well, except for the race thingy.
ohwells. i'll mind my words next time.

i'm trying to make this blog sound lively.
but it seems like its a failure.

whatever la. nothing means much anymore.

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love, love, love. what is love?

Dienstag, Juli 12

6:37 PM

haix. my life is shit.

i dont really care anymore.

sometimes. the world is so mean.

i feel puny. i feel minute. i feel like im just a speck of dust.

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why did things have to turn out this way?

there's nothing happy to blog about.

school is depressing. coming home is depressing.

where else can i go?

- and i wonder.

Montag, Juli 11

8:30 PM

all i wanted was some... recognition.
or at least, something else better.

i guess its no use now.

- you live for yourself.

4:18 PM

佳峰，生日快樂！

oh yes. today is 11/7. the direct opposite of my birthday.
HAHA. and my bday= o's. ahhh. shant think abt it.

shat la. life is forever depressing. dang it. im bored. but i have to study. my blog is so bland. =(

nothing interesting that can interest YOU. well, blogs like lizzy's and yvonne's are really nice to read, inspiring and makes you stop and realize what's actually happening. =)

unlike mine.

snort snort. i'm prob more into designing layouts. yeah. crap eh?
anw. i've re-updated this obiang bkgrnd. AHHAHA. i think it looks damn obiang, but then again, i dont know. someone please tell me what you think of it. =(

gahhh. i shall rest awhile and then study all the way.
oooh. "take my word for it" is so nice! =) ahhhhhh... yang guang! zhang zhi ling! hahaha. ye ke ren =) and kenix kwok is so chio. really. that show rocks.
hmmm. tonight desperate housewives is ending its seasonal run. should i watch? wonder who's gonna die man. i hope mike dies. or maybe... gabrielle will have a miscarriage or some crap. lol.

heck la. i shall be off.

- bull's eye.

Sonntag, Juli 10

8:19 PM

okay quick update before i have to go alr. i totally gave up on the pix thingy.
so here's my new layout. katie holmes.
haha. everything's not totally updated yet, will try to update when i've got more time.

gotta rush my studying now!
cya all! =)

give ya comments kay.

Samstag, Juli 9

9:57 PM

oh man. aint this depressing! =( i tried to re-update my layout and all.
but everything just seemed to crash...
well, not really but. the pieces didnt piece together.
so yeah.
maybe becos i tried something new.
with picx as the background table.
so it got messed up. something wherever went wrong.
and im super sleepy. so i guess, i'll do it whenever i have the time.

disappointment.

anws. i went for dental today.
stupid la. must put rubber bands again.
freaking uncomfy!!! ='(
had italian gelato tho! yum yum! tiramisu is so nice.
then went to kino. i bought this uber cute
pooh pencil! =) its 5 bucks tho. hehehe.
met yx at orchard lib.
did emath till 4.30...
then got may sze her energy album.
sigh. why am i going thru so much
to help her get it signed?
its nt even my own album!
khoo may sze, you owe me big time man.
must go through dont know how many friend's friends lor!
tian ah. =/

so yeah. then cheong mrt back for amath tuition.
im so tired. better catch a wink first.
then i shall wake up to do more math!
yx says math is fun! haha. emath = fun?
nahhh! with miss lui, nothing's quite much fun.
at least some people got nice emath teacher like h*** lor.
haha! ~~~~~~~~~

while some ppl are at energy concert, sji band concert.
im stuck here trying to realize what ive been doing
the past few months.
gosh. 62 days to prelims.

WOW.

- rock-a-bye baby

Freitag, Juli 8

8:56 PM

okay i'm so tired. my bones are aching.
so are my muscles. ouchhhhhh!
havent ran long distance in like dont know how long.
and ran 3 rounds for PE today.
it's like. 1.2km. hahahah. i know it aint much.
but. i havent ran since. dont know when man.
seriously. =/ suffering in agony now.

well, i forgot to mention yest.
we had photo taking. class + cca.
class was damn funny. esp informal.
the bench totally collapsed la.
and then... everyone was like 0_0
then everyone started pointing at mr ang...
"orhhh!!!~~~" damn funny la.
then mr ang looked so innocent.
wahahhahahahahah! =) lol.

yeah. i guess that's all.
oh yeahs. simin and i had an engaging talk
about tourism and fears of travelling abroad.
and then. really kena. london bomb blasts.
damn zhun la. =(
seriously hope they're taking things into hand now.

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okay. i've like got some idea on a new layout.
but im so tired.
tmr gna have dental, then meeting yx for our emath!
=) whhoot. haha.
then after got amath tuition. sighhhh.
so yeah. i'm feeling lazy to re-do a new layout.
hahhaha. i hope i can.
but gotta finish amath and phy hwk first! =)
work hard! yx! we can do it!! =)

- part and parcels of life

Donnerstag, Juli 7

7:23 PM

im so sorry i havent been able to upgrade this place. school has gone back to the normal time table. been busy studying ...

its 4 months to O's!
&... 4 pathetic months to my BIRTHDAY.

but... one thing that's good, my site is 1 month old!
thought of sprucing it up for its 1 month birthday but.
i seriously have no time to re-design this site. =(
maybe tomorrow. when i stay up late! so...
i hope i can get it done by the weekend!

OKAY. London won the bid for 2012 Olympics.
and now. this afternoon. BLAM!
terrorist attacks. fatalities, casualties...
entire tube closed, transport system has come to a halt,
everything in less than 24 hours!!!
isnt life unpredictable?

amazing it is,
but that's how life is.
serenading in the joy just yesterday
and then today...
drowning in the distraught of Britons.

well, i was disappointed that Paris didnt win,
but. i think indirectly, London deserves it.
they've set aside a huge budget for the building
of stadiums, restructuring the east end,
building new underground lines for easy access
to the Olympic park...
overall, a very tempting proposal indeed.

and they're video. it sort of captured the hearts
of IOC members, i guess.
aimed with the motive of aspiring and inspiring
the young to take part in sports,
they really brought out the message.
and watching it again,
the video was really nicely taken. =)

oh wells. don't wanna talk much today.
i've to go for dinner now. adieu~

- london bridge is falling down.

Dienstag, Juli 5

8:26 PM

oh man. oral is done with. well, it seems like the questions were like partially erased from my head. i forgot what i said sia. kris, what did i tell you? help me recall my memory pls. haha.

anw. if im not wrong, it was something like that.
news: 报章报道，最近学生趁学校假期为了买一些物品，如手机，衣服等等而出去工作。谈谈你的看法！*like digi cams, mp3... more on the buying of these gadgets la.
in the recent news, teenagers are taking advantage of the school holidays to earn $$ to buy items like handphones, digi cams... (technological devices), what do you think?
normal: 现代的科技很发达，有了电脑，数码相机，手机，你对这些东西觉得如何？
what do you think of the modern technological advancements such as handphones, digi cams and computers?

wah. all abt technology!!! omt. i was like. *swallowing saliva* all the way. hahaha. well... i crapped up stuff la. like the first one, i said i agreed cos by going out to work when they are young, it enables them to gain exposure and experience, which will help them in the future... and they asked abt me, would i do that? then i said no. then they asked, then if i would like these items, what would i do? and i said i'll 撒娇！like... im nt sure how to say in eng. haha. and then... like ask for incentives for good results etc... yepp. and they laughed! and its the ms ho kind of laugh. and i was like damn nervous so i was like shocked. haha.

the 2nd one.. i didnt expect it to be like about the same... so i crapped out stuff such as like it'll be convenient and so on...yeah and then they were like asking abt my hp bill. =.= i dont know how it ended up there... but i said smtg like... 我不懂，是我爸付的。and then she laughed. and i was like? o.0 haha. funny meh? and then they asked what will happen if one day, i had no hp at all. i said 我会崩溃的！cos its like stranded on an island with no connections to the outside world. hahahhaha...

i was so glad they were laughing! they looked so stern before... scare me sia. i totally 冒冷汗 can! wah cao... well. even if i made a fool of myself, at least they found it pleasurable? haha i just hope i can do well to get a distinction pls! *prays very hard*

so yeah. its over. phew phew phew. im done with. next up is listening lo... better dig my ears properly! haha. ok. bye! got lots of work. =(

- if you can think of the bad things, why cant you think of the good?　

Montag, Juli 4

8:31 PM

darn it. school's gonna start really 'officially' tmr.
the past week was filled with CAs.
and thank God we could come home straight after our papers.
with some ending at 9.20 am?
wah best sia.

but tmr. i'll have to come home at 2.30pm again.
how saddening.

-time for me to say goodbye.

3:29 PM

i'm so sorry to fill my blog with KONE pix. but i seriously have no other choice.
HAHA.
i'm kidding la.
i just find KONE so hilarious. moreover, they just had their wanquan happy party.

some screen shots.
please do not proceed cos some might be of viewer discretion. haha.
i've alr censored out some very disgusting and gross parts. who asked kido to be so suay to lose all the challenges? sighhh. then again,

poor darren. he's another victim.

JR looks super weird la.

Sonntag, Juli 3

9:06 PM

i went out shopping. but couldnt find much.
where have all the nice tees gone???
so i bought a skirt.
which kinda looks like a table cloth. hahahaha.

so yeah. and i walked all the shops in taka.
well, those like Guess, Zara, A\X, Mango...
all the clothes were kinda for the more adultish kind.
so yepp. how sad.
so that's all i got for the Great S'pore Sale.
=/

sighhhh. and then went tiong bahru to eat dinner.
i had satay bee hoon, steamboat porridge,
hokkien mee, & satay. nice nice!
eh. how boring can my life get.
i have to resort to talking about the food i eat.
and not what exactly happened today.

oh yes. i saw wenpei at parkway.
she recognized me. how amazing.
and i took me a solid 10 secs of staring
before it registered into my head.
gosh. hahahaa. =)

and i watched daxiongyishijia again!
the sweety episode is so funny!
JR was like so cute la.
seeing him getting strangled and all.
wahahahha.
ok to end if off, some screen shots.

- the relived innocence

Samstag, Juli 2

8:56 PM

ok. bad choice.
i did something uberly hororrible to my supposedly layout. i'm so sorry. i guess it'll have to wait. gahhhhh. i need inspiration! but i just changed my links and previous layouts part under the navigation to php. so its. yeah. lazy larrrrrr..................

relaxation has finally arrived. it feels good to just laze around. watch the clouds flow by. stare at the tv/computer. lie on my bed and falling asleep without worrying about what time i have to wake up and study.

it feels great.
but on the 5 july. it'll be all over again.
Boy, am i waiting for the 18th of nov.
L I B E R A T I O N!!!

i wonder what's up with cbox. its crapping up once in a while.
tsktsktsk.

finally went back for amath tuition today.
r.v is so fun eh? and im sucking at vectors la.
i need more practice.
speaking of amath. havent seen mrs geh during blocks.
i really do hope she returns. =(
if not we'll get a old and slow amath teacher. nooo!

i hope i can go and send awei off on monday. hhahahahah. my canon's rotting la. it hasnt been put into good use since... dont know how long already. heheheh.
and then again, i'm scared of tuesday! i seriously need to do well for oral la. and its been one month without speaking chinese at least twice a week!! im losing touch! blast it. i better get dad to buy the chinese newspapers or something. hahaha.

ok. i guess that'll be all. =/

- let's leave it all to fate.

p.s my knuckles near my right thumb are really hurting! excessive computer usage? ='(

Freitag, Juli 1

11:45 PM

some visuals for you to enjoy!

so cute eh! my birthday pooh! sP has one too! haha.

my xbox controller. so chio... =)

project gotham=initial D! hehe.

i love project gotham! =)

ohyeah. did you guys notice some blending on the image on elis's blog?
haha. its nice! i like it. lol.

8:17 PM

hualalalalala!

BLOCKS ARE OVER!

but wait,
physics was a killer.
so i dont really have a valid reason to enjoy now.
THANK YOU LOR, MS TEE!
o.0
wahlao. it was shit. crap. unbelievable.
whatever lor.
all my studying went down the drain!
and s.h.c! i tried so hard to understand it.
and now?! now?!
i just feel like crying out a tsunami.

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never mind. better things.
time to change layout! hahaa.
i helped elis change hers.
go take a look ok! =)
and yes. cbox is down. gahhhh!

oh ya. IOC is next week!
been watching lots of CNA.
IOC IOC IOC IOC IOC.
everyday also IOC.
beckham's gonna come.
zidane maybe.
etc etc. biggest names in sports eh?
hahaha.
i hope Madrid win! =)
or maybe Paris.
cant wait. results on 6 july.
who will host the 2012 Olympics?

i shall go and search for new ideas for layouts.

-and when life takes a drastic turn

desired